It’s two in the morning. A hot tumbler of peppermint tea sits to the side of my computer. In a sleepy stupor, I watch mesmerized, as the steam dissipates into the chilly morning air. I am hoping that my first sip will help to soothe “what-ails-me.”
No answers to chronic pain keep me awake. I pray. I struggle. I sort out all I have done to find answers. I take another long, hard look at the answers I do have. Yet, in all this, the real answer alludes me and doctors alike.
So, it is mornings like this that I find myself writing, praying, thinking of other chronic-pain-suffers, who also have no answers to their undiagnosed ailments.
It is for you that I write these words, or for the reader who knows someone who has waited far-too-long for the answers to health concerns.
God is enough
These three words come to the forefront of my mind. “God is enough.” As I write them, I am immediately struck by the truth, that pours soothingly like a salve over my overwhelm.
Christ is enough. He knows me. He hears my cries in the early morning hour, and He is not put off by my questions, concerns or pleas for the waiting to be over.
As Psalm 139 says; He knows when I sit down and when I rise up; He understands my thoughts from afar. He is intimately acquainted with all my ways.
God knows what we need
As I think of Christ Jesus being all that I need, I realize once again that He knows what I need and when I need it.
God’s hand will always lead me to the best answer for every situation.
In the meanwhile, He will enclose me with His loving Presence, which always yields up peace.
He is enough for this moment in the middle of the night when I can’t sleep. He is enough when I am in pain. He is enough when another test comes back with, “Good news! Everything’s fine.” And yet I am far from fine.
I don’t know your story, but if you are in chronic pain I am going to stop, and pray for you right now. If you are looking for health answers, know that God is enough. He promises to provide for all that we need. I understand how hard the waiting is, but I also have learned that I need to stop and rest in the truth that God’s timing, for all things, is perfect and best. As I grasp God’s goodness in all of life’s situations, only then, can I lift my eyes away from myself and bask in His goodness.
God is enough.
God knows what you need.
God knows your story.
God cares that you are suffering.
God, there are weary, waiting souls out there that need your touch today. For some, their chronic pain feels insufferable. They have no answers. They need to feel your mercy and find relief from constant pain.
God, thank you that you know each one by name. You know when they sit down, when they get up and when they walk through their day. You know how much energy that it takes for someone who is suffering to do even these, simple tasks.
God, I reach out my hand, and ask that you pour mercy and grace upon these lives that are looking for a break in the pain, a respite from endless tests that reveal no answers. Despite this cycle of searching, may they look to you as the perfect physician. The one who knows them intimately.
Thank you for your everlasting love. Draw each one into your care, with your sweet loving-kindness. Turn eyes away from current circumstances and broaden hearts and minds to see a greater good, to know that You are enough. Despite pain and hardship, you are present. In the midst of unanswered questions, you always bring an all-pervading peace.
You are the all wise God. You understand each need. Amen
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LINDA JANE DINGELDEIN: DIFFERENT BY DESIGN